A Mad Man

Vanity of all Vanities, all is Vanity

Tuesday, September 20, 2011

I am Who I am

From birth to childhood, teenage years and on to adulthood, I am now in a state of peace at myself. Finally after years of struggling with an identity that I would take on, I can really truly say "I have arrived". The decades of life moulding me into who I am today, the experiences, painful and yet sweet, made me what I today.

I was exceedingly shy, not because I am not capable of expressing myself, but because I hated myself, I was more ashamed of being me, so I hid and ran into the wilderness. I lose myself into the labryinth of this world and experience one too many things I really don't care to repeat. Enough, I said to myself one day, Enough. I need to truly see myself straight in the eye and ask - what do I really want to be in this life? And somewhere deep down in the abyss of this dark soul of mine, a still small voice is calling, beckoning, persuading... I need to go back to my first love... I.Need.To.Go.Back.

And so, after 2 years of solitude in the gentle care of my Lord's Words, I am ready to face this world in the right frame of mind, with the right attitude. I now look at this world, my life through the glasses of God and if that makes me a madman, so be it. I am honoured and privileged to be one.

Welcome to my world.

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